A jug fills drop by drop.
To be a better daughter and to stop thinking mean and bitchy thoughts.
The more I get into this thing the more I think, what exactly is the point? What am I trying to do here?
At first it was a joke. Like a lot of my life decisions, it just seemed like a good idea at the time. Maybe, magically, if I did something different, my life would change for the better. If not, at least it’d be an interesting experiment.
Now I’m starting to think it takes more than a few late night resolutions to actually change. Changing is the hardest thing anyone can do – lots of people want to do it, and hardly anyone really does. Real change is not just swimming upstream against the world, it’s swimming upstream against yourself. The real me just wants to stay home and write. BUT –
Like I said, this week I really tried not to think too many VIOLENT PSYCHOTIC EVIL thoughts. Actually I was so busy this week I more or less forgot to anyway – but not quite!
Minus 2 KARMIC POINTS!
- Halinka, we’ve been friends for15 years. In that time, you’ve told me many times how special I am to you, and that’s really bucked me up. But I’ve never really reciprocated, cause we British Australians don’t do soppy stuff. Anyway, last week you were sad and stressed, so I gave you a hug and told you I loved you. You rock, babe. 3 POINTS (you’ve got no idea how painful it was to actually say something, you know….ewww)
- Stan, I picked you up at a party 6 years ago, cause you looked like a really nice bloke. In that time, you’ve always been there for me, picking up my car when I broke down on the road halfway to Sydney, offering support when I broke up with the Demon Ex. We don’t have too much in common, and it’s usually you that rings ME. I haven’t heard from you for a year and I kinda wondered if you were ok – but I was too busy to ask. Yesterday I rang you and we fixed up to have dinner sometime. You’re crap with personal finances, Stan, but you’re a Good Man. May good things come to you (but not necessarily in cash). 3 POINTS
- Mum, I don’t know how much longer you’re going to be around. When you think about it, I could’ve said that about anyone, anytime. But now the situation’s slightly more urgent and I’m calling in once every couple of days, because the time’s coming when I’ll never see your dear face again. Let’s not get soppy though, alright? 0 POINTS, YOU OUGHTA BE NICE TO YOUR MUM ANYWAY.
Captain Savage and Rose try out for The X Factor
Yeah, we sing and look like complete dags. Whatever!
I promise to write a story JUST for sis. In it, she’s gonna be a saint. No, a real one. The first atheist ever to sit on the right hand of God. Sis, you are going to LIKE this story, I guarantee! And THEN you’re going to cook me dinner????